Hello everyone!

Read the title! It’s about me today! Considering that it is a personal blog, I felt that I’d just give a couple of more tidbits than what I wrote about myself on my little bio page. I’m very complicated… so 5 things are just the surface and I’m not going to load up this site on posts all about me, because I am not self-centered, conceited or anything else. I hate attention, and absolutely despise it and I consider myself an extremely private person. So with all things considered, I hope that I won’t bore you to death and I promise a great post tomorrow!

1. I’m a vegetarian
   I might have mention this a few times in previous posts, but yes, shockingly a girl of 17 years old has committed herself to at least a year of vegetarianism. I guess it’s not as crazy as it sounds for those of you who are open-minded but from where I live, I think it sounds pretty crazy. The number one reason that I’ve committed is that I care about animals like God cares about humans (so I’ve heard, I’m not God) and I think that any life is too valuable to simply throw away, and it is because of this that has caused me much guilt and agony staring at my ribs on my plate and thinking how that creature got there in the first place. It was too much guilt, and when I did research on the factory farms I made a decision to save at least 50 animals from the factory farm life in my lifetime (this is just a year of vegetarianism – I don’t know how far I’m willing to go, and I know that it won’t be a lifetime).
2. I don’t drink/party
   This is another commitment that I’ve made for myself, and it was a bundle of confusion until I saw clear after two years of the pure pressure that high school has given me. I don’t drink – never have – nor party because I believe that that’s the right thing for me to do. I have various opinions on alcohol, such as it’s like smoking a cigarette – I mean, why would you ever put a toxin in your body in the first place to harm it? I don’t judge other people and especially teenagers my age on how the party – but seeing the aftereffects of alcohol and the obstacles it places in judgment, it’s sometimes hard not to. The decisions that you make while intoxicated sometimes are with you a lifetime, and I do know a person who is now paralyzed forever with some brain damage from a drunk street race. I would never wish that upon someone, and I don’t think that a person would wish that upon themselves. Plus the high school partying thing isn’t really appealing – I see it as trashy, a lot of vomiting and the ugly aftermaths are all on Facebook.
3. I like to read… a lot
   I’m a nerd, and a bookworm (and proud of it) and I just love classical literature. I mean, love it! It’s better than watching T.V, and way more stimulating plus I always like to escape reality with a good book by a skillful author who makes the characters jump out of the page, and it’s as if when you look up, you see the characters and you are with them. I think that when you are constantly feeling like you are in a state of ignorance – especially about the world – thirsting for a book really quenches that ignorance, and I believe that that is a healthy thing for anyone and everyone. Reading books expands your perspective in life, makes you have a wider knowledge in imagination on what’s going on around you and you want to know the best part? No matter how far-fetched the plot is away from reality, you can always relate to it. I believe that from the bottom of my heart.
4. I’m a Music ___
   I don’t know what word I’d put under the blank, but let’s just say that I would probably be dead without my piano and my iPod, which is the library of my entire music collection (I’m scared that my 120GB will not be enough).  First off, I would tie the importance of music to the importance of reading; it’s another thirst-quencher for ignorance. Music can be shallow, shady, dirty, angry and everything else in between. Music makes the world go round because it’s these melodies that are played when words aren’t enough anymore. Music changes lives, and it is probably one of the most influential media aspects in the world. My favorite part about music is it makes you who you are – like what you listen is what you are. It affects your heartbeat; brain activity; frequencies and when a song is really, really good, and your endorphins release, it’s like ecstasy – and it’s better than doing drugs. Oh, and where do I get the right to say this? I’ve been playing piano and doing music for almost as long as I’m living, with skills in writing and near perfect-pitch, so don’t you bitch at me for not knowing what I’m talking about – because I do.
5. My motto in life: Live (it’s an assignment, and believe me, it’s not easy), and do my part in making it the world better
   I live a very quiet life, and I have few friends (maybe because I’m such a freak and a hell of a ‘teenager) and I like to keep my ring of friends tight. I believe that having fewer friends who are good to you are better than a big group of friends that just look past you when you are not there. I think that life is hard – nothing is ever easy, bravo to whoever said that first – but you want to know what’s the most beautiful thing about it that makes you cherish it the most? Death. That is so morbid, but it’s true that all good things must end because if it didn’t, we would be in heaven right now (I honestly do not see the beauty in heaven… a world of perfection, I can’t imagine) and imperfections makes us beautiful. That’s probably why I’m so pro-vegetarian; why I don’t like to put toxins like alcohol in my body (it doesn’t feel good anyway, so I don’t get why people do it); why I sound so optimistic in promoting life. I appreciate it from the bottom of my heart, and that is why I simply want to live a life of me being a good person. An overall good person – not like a nun, of course. I’m not perfect, I mean I work more than I live sometimes but that’s because I don’t want to be an ignorant woman when I grow older – I want to be informed, make good decisions, and write and teach about things that matter. My dream? I want to be a great pediatric surgeon because the people who are the most full of life are the kids.

Do I sound like a goody-two shoes to you? It does in writing. Let me get this straight: I’m not religious, but my parents think that I’m pure enough at heart to be a buddhist, and I a grew up with a family of buddhists. Right now during this time, I’ve decided that God/Buddha/Whoever needs to accept that I’m not ready to accept a higher being. I take my fate in my own hands, and I think that waiting for something to happen in God’s/Buddha’s hands while i’m only 17 years old is too slow – I make it happen, and I always do. However, I know that someday I will be in the hands of God/Buddha one day… right now I’m just living my life as a young woman, and the last thing on my mind is living with a conscience other than myself – God’s/Buddha’s.

Bottom line is, I sound like a pretty confused chick in the end.

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